- I care more about you, then me
While the blog name of Mildly Me may imply that this blog is all about me, it is not. When I came up with the blog name, I wanted to represent you and be a place for you to express yourself. Since many of us go through life thinking we need to be this or that, or need to calm down or be more outgoing. I honestly think who you are is perfect despite what you may think, or have and continue be told. Be bold and don’t sell yourself short. Know I care about you so much, whether you are a friend or simply someone reading this blog, always remember to be true to your hue.
2. I was a total tomboy growing up
Growing up, I loved being able to explore my environment and trying new things. As a kid, I always wanted to play outside versus stay in and play with barbies. I even remember at age 3, I learned how to ride a bike and from there I wanted to learn how to ride a motorcycle like all the boys were at the time. Being a tomboy at a young age was hard, since I never felt like I fitted in. I would try to copy what the girls my age were doing and would just feel lost, or even judged by the people I was trying so hard to fit in with. From a very young age, I learned who I was and who I wanted to be. Sometimes, you never fit the mold, but that’s okay. I feel if there is something that makes you different, you should celebrate and embrace it. Every day I am still working on celebrating who I am, while celebrating who you are. Just remember, why be someone you are not when you got something about you that makes you different from the rest of the crowd.
3. I struggle and continue to struggle with my mental health
From a young age, I have fought to be who I am today. My mental health struggles started out when I was a kid who went back and forth between parents houses, maybe you can relate. But being in a constant state of switching back and forth between homes led to me being two different people to satisfy who I thought I needed to be. I even remember having thoughts as a kid as to I wander what this world would be without me. I feel sometimes we make our struggles just about ourself, but when we step out of the mindset we realize there our outward factors affecting how we inwardly treat and think about ourself. I guess you could say one has to be both selfish and selfless when it comes to their mental health. I did not realize I was missing the balance between what got me here versus where do I want to go, because sometimes when you are in a state crisis you just think about who you are in this moment. And that was when I realized as my mental health ebbed and flowed throughout the years, it’s all about balance.
But I lost my balance this year when it came to a job where I gave more than myself to make someone else happy or content, I lost myself. With each panic attack, I felt I could no longer be a warrior but was a slave to my feelings. Never before had I experienced such bad depression, anxiety and panic attacks then I did from my last job as tv news producer. Thankful I found the courage in my heart to stand up and walk away from something that was truly tearing me down then building me up. Realizing that balance between give and take, always put me back in place when I give more than I should to those around me, since I care so much about people.
4. I rather avoid my fears than face them head on
I have so many fears and I know you do too. I feel many of us fear how we will be perceived. And for the longest time I did not start a blog until now because I thought no one will care about what I have to say. Then, I came to the realization that each of us have something to say, and that we deserved to be heard. And facing our fears can be quite scary. So yes I was afraid to start a blog, afraid of what you may think of me and where this blog may go. I feel many of the times our fears hold us back from truly embracing life. Life is about never holding back from the what ifs, because years from now you will wander what if I did not tell that person I cared about them, or took that once in a lifetime trip to mark something off my bucket list. Life is full of bucket list moments, it is just how much you choose to face your fears head on, if you want to enjoy this one life we are given.
5. I rarely ever wear makeup, unless it is a special ocassion
I feel as a human we are told by the media for the most part that we need to look and dress a certain way. I feel many of us wear makeup since we want to coverup or highlight the parts of us who make us who we are. I remember from young age playing with barbies and thinking I do not look like that, I’m not like every other girl who enjoys dressing up or putting on make up. Make up to me felt like a chore through my teenage years and then when I got to college I realized to bare who I was, which was someone who enjoyed simplicity and did not need makeup to feel good about myself. There are days here and there, ok most days, that I definitely wear concealer to cover up those dark circle and baggy under eyes . I do see the purpose of makeup and feel pretty when I wear it but I also feel secure in my skin when I do not have any make up at all, I encourage you to step out of your comfort zone and try embracing your flaws, we all of them. As I tend to say to myself as a mantra and now I am saying to you is that, you are perfect in your imperfections.
6. I am adventorous and embrace new experiences
I am adventorous but not Ralph Waldo Emerson by any means. I appreciate nature but I do not want to be one with nature. Being out in nature though can be cure for the soul. I feel each of us have a soul different from the person next to you, that you have a reason to be here and a lesson to teach to those around you, so embrace what fuels your soul. With that being said, embracing new experiences and people has taught me to be more open-minded and not be completely judgemental of someone up front, which I used to be. As I get older (okay almost 24 is not that old) I realize being open to life, you can learn a lot about yourself and the world that surrounds you. So starting today, let’s be adventoruous and have the grace to embrace the places we visit and the faces we meet.
7. I put the Poe in Poet
As some of you may now, I write poetry in my free time. I do not write poetry for any type of noriety, but as a way to express and understand myself through words and emotions. I find through writing poems you can really see what a feeling felt like and what a memory meant. If you have never wrote a single poem in your life, I encourage you to just give it a go. When writing a poem, don’t care what people are going to think of you. Think about what you want to say. Putting what you hoped to had said or want to say on paper can really help when it comes to processing your thoughts and emotions. If you are ever want to write a poem or are in need of some poetry, feel free to reach out to me. Being the hoot of a poet I am, I love to hear what people have to say with their words, words can be oh so powerful when you string them together on a page, and rhyme a line or two. Together, you and me let’s put the Poe in poet.
8. I dabble in way too many things
Welp, if you know me or are just getting to know me, you may now that I love to wear a variety of hats. I love to write but I also love to learn a new skill like coding. In life I am constantly learning as a mechanism to distract myself from the uncertainity of life. I find dabbling in a bunch of things helps me connect to you, but I also feel at times I am being spread way too thin. While I encourage you to expand your horizons and be a human of many skills, I also encourage you to take time for yourself. I did not realize how important self care was until I was left feeling drained at the end of day. Yes, you can accomplish so much, but you can also do too much. Over time I realized while I enjoy doing many different things, I also enjoy having time to myself to relax an reflect. Life is meant to be enjoyed not for you to be burnt out or stressed out.
Now you know, 8 Things You May Have Not Known About Me until reading this. I am so grateful to you the person who read this, now go celebrate what makes you, you.